Your Queer Fat Auntie Experiencing Cancer
Dear Ones, It’s Friday, Laura and I are headed off for a fun weekend. We are finding some resolutions for the new office challenges that we’ve been facing, and I’m healthy. So what’s with the tears? What’s with the feeling like I’ve been kicked in the chest? What’s with the exhaustion? It wasn’t until about…
Dear Ones, What follows is a bit of a rant, that started because of a few posts that I have seen lately from people who want to tell fat people that it isn’t healthy to be fat. Weight in and of itself is not the problem. The food supply, toxins, diets and other things are…
Dear Ones, Phalco is a dear and cuddly Alpaca Part of what I have found I need to let go of lately is, using the right word. For someone who has always communicated pretty well and had a lot of words handy in my brain, this is something of an adjustment. I’ve found it…
Dear Ones, We noted the first anniversary of this adventure in late June. Happenstance got me back to Dr. Mrose, my favorite radiologist at Bay Radiology, for my first set of mammograms exactly a year after I had been in because of the lump I found in my breast. All is well in mammo-land these…
Dear Ones, As you probably remember, Laura and I were back at CTCA this week for follow-up and a PET/CT, which is frankly just looking for spread of the cancer. They call it a “new baseline.” We got the results yesterday, And the test came back clear, “no evidence of disease.” Blessed be! So time…
Dear Ones. “You look so good!” Yes, I do. That is a good thing. At times it feels like people are somewhat surprised. They expect me to appear sicker somehow. I’ve even felt an occasional judgment float through-perhaps I’m not suffering enough, if I am doing the metastatic breast cancer path I ought to look…
Dear Ones, Below is a quick note Laura wrote last night to a friend with a bit of an update. I asked if I could share it to let you all know what is going on these days as I have been so deep in the underworld of this healing journey. from Laura:We head to…
June, July, AugustSept., Oct., Nov., Dec., Jan., Feb., MarchLong journey indeed. Now, I may simplyrecover, and breathe a bitCelebrate? Not yet. Post traumatic growth?Another bar set so high,Repair cells and soul. Love,Amelia
Dear Ones, much to say RadioactivityTaken attention. Radiation – mytired, burned finaleBack when recover’d Back off, don’t touchYes, beautiful scarf is green Respect boundary Slash, poison and burnOur modern cancer treatmentAdd ancient wisdom Cancer survivor?Or a treatment survivor?Either way, I’m here, life good. So deeply tiredEnergy needed to healAwake exhausted Please, a gown that fits?Really?…
Dear Ones, It has been too long, I apologize. Living our day to day life, celebrating Christmas, making decisions about the house renovation, that’s about all I have been up to, and it is about all I could have been up to:-) I am finished with chemo, with three weeks of recovery since my last…